Backposting Drafts: Merry-go-round feelings

Going through my draft folder for Nanopoblano 🙂

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Written on Nov 8th 2018. Mostly. The draft was saved on the 21st (also Nov ’18) Found and backposted on Nov 4th 2021.

I was on my way home from a holiday in France and Spain, staying in the AirBnB for the second time. The owner had let me leave my bike there for the Spanish part of the trip. Reading through this post, I remember the day, the feelings, the sunlight. After a minute or so, I know it continues with buying posh pastries at a patisserie and having to rush back to the station afterwards; going a different way, and getting frustrated about my inability to go the same way twice, but loving the feeling of riding the hill down to the station. I don’t remember these moments after the post finishes quite as well as I remember the written moments. I’m not sure if the writing or the reading is more responsible for the memories. Whichever it is, I’m grateful to my past self for writing, even if she didn’t finish describing the day.

Merry-go-round feelings

Back when I wrote this, I didn’t know this song (quoted below) but I think it fits – for the writing and not just because of the literal polaroid pictures 🙂 I need to remember to do this more often. There are so many things I wish I could go back and re-visit as clearly as that morning in France.

But in the stillness of the moment it takes for a Polaroid picture
To capture our faces forever
The world has turned a touch on its axis
And the only thing certain is
That everything changes
So honey I just need a little time
To take a little time today
To save all the triumphs and tragedies
Before they slip away
Before they slip away

Frank Turner, Polaroid picture, 2013