“Don’t ask what the world needs, ask what makes you come alive, and go do it.
Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
– Howard Thurman
One of my favourite people told me today that she sees me as a “PowerFrau”. That translates literally as “power woman”, but kind of loses something in the translation. She means she thinks I’m always doing/achieving something. She occasionally has a point. In the last 6 months I have, among other less noteworthy things, dug a pond, been to evening classes, survived a breakup, sat exams, moved house, set up a 350l aquarium, written and presented a dissertation, driven across Germany, visited my family in England twice, produced the prizes for a chemistry competition, helped a friend pack the contents of her house ready to move and worked more or less full time.
I don’t feel like a PowerFrau at the moment though. I feel like someone’s stolen my batteries, and maybe filled the space with lead. There are some days where life is just hard. Everything seems heavier than normal and it counts as an achievement to survive the entire day intact. It doesn’t help that it’s damp and dark for most of my non-working hours.
What I need to do to feel alive is probably sleep more. My sleep dept might not be as obviously well-recorded as my sister’s, but it’s still made it’s mark and left rainbow-coloured suitcases under my eyes. I look forward to a time where I’m not dragging myself to work, where I feel up to cooking, where I can imagine going anywhere non-urgent, for pleasure, instead of curling up on my sofa. Where watching the fish is something I do between activities instead of the main attraction. Where washing my hair isn’t a hassle and going shopping is something I can be excited about.
That’s a vision for a future in which I am slightly more alive than I am now. The future beyond that will hopefully be even better, I just can’t picture it yet.
Lots of sleep.
6 thoughts on “Quote: on coming alive”
You’ve got the recipe it seems so now you have to do the baking! Good luck with it!
Love that 🙂
Not so good at baking it seems, but I am looking forward to getting better 😉
I feel much the same way! There’s no way to describe my level of exhaustion. Sending some virtual energy your way. ?
Hey! You’re new here – welcome to my world 🙂
If you’re as exhausted as I am, I feel guilty for accepting your energy, even if it is virtual… 😉 But I certainly appreciate the offer! 🙂 Maybe I should send you some [virtual] energy back – perhaps other people’s energy works differently, like when you change your shampoo.. Whatcha think?
Thank you! And I think you’re most likely right about the energy- it’s like changing shampoos! ?
🙂 ok, then let’s swap a little bit..