I currently have a friend over for a long weekend and I am becoming more and more aware that I am not cut out for a long-term female partnership..
How do I know?
I have no patience for conversations about frilly knickers, nail varnish, the best way to burn candles or which bread has the lowest glycemic index. (But I can sit for hours listening to people talk about the finer points of changing the blades on a thickness planer machine, despite never having seen one).
I am not very knowledgeable about yoga, stretching, running, or really any exercise in general.
I don’t care much about fashion, fabric, design, pattern, or clothes as long as I’m dressed and warm enough.
I have less than no idea about hairdryers. I don’t blow-dry my hair unless I absolutely have to. That happens maybe once a year, twice if I go to the hairdressers. I have a small hot-air-blowing device which I use on the rare occasions when I deem it necessary, and which packs into a small bag in a cupboard for the rest of the year. (Naja, that’s not quite true, it’s also pretty good at drying paint/woodstain if I’m too impatient to let things dry by themselves, so it does get to come out of the cupboard sometimes). It turns out it isn’t a proper hairdryer but rather a styling brush (and therefore not useful for drying one’s hair). Who knew?
I wouldn’t recognize an electric nail file if I tripped over it, nevermind know which way to hold it or how (or why) to use it. Or an electric callous grinder (see? no idea what they’re even supposed to be called). I don’t remember ever having or doing a pedicure, unless you count filing the pointy edges off my toenails when they break and threaten to make holes in my socks.
I am used to being the dithery party. I am used to getting lost in places I’ve been before. I am used to people complaining about how long it takes me to get ready to go anywhere. I am used to people getting stroppy about me leaving a trail of my things strewn across the house. I am used to people laughing at or not understanding my clothes (“so what is this thing anyway?!” – talking about a wrap around skirt).
I am not used to waiting for more than an hour to get into the bathroom in the morning.
I am not used to working round other people’s PMS.
I am not used to multiple (many many many) bottles of ‘body care’ potions appearing all over the house.
I am not used to getting home and being greeted by a wave of ‘girly smells’. Perfume and baby powder and shampoo and conditioner and body lotion and hand cream and whathaveyou each with a different (but strong) fragrance.
I can’t work up any excitement (at all) for an evening of ‘pampering’ if it involves anything other than massage. Start talking about mutual makeovers and I will bail.
I can’t deal with “What’s up?” “Nothing.” conversations.
I don’t understand freezing but simultaneously objecting to either finding another jumper or turning the radiators on.
I don’t understand why anyone would [regularly and willingly] eat nothing but salad for dinner and then get up in the middle of the night to raid the fridge and the breadbin.
When I get ill, I am more likely to have manflu and go to bed with honey-and-lemon and a hot water bottle (and maybe my laptop) than to try and keep up my manic schedule while sneezing, snuffling and coughing, at least for the worst couple of days.
I am not naturally a tidy person. I don’t think anyone could reasonably call me a neat-freak (:)) – I severely dislike washing up and doing housework – but finding cups in the bookcase and plates left on the coffeetable instead of at least in the vicinity of the sink has helped me develop a new sympathy for people who are.
Also. Hair. I used to laugh at a long-distant-ex-boyfriend for complaining about the “hairy woman-beast” inhabiting his space. I’m not going to take sides with him, but I can at least see that he might have had a point.
In short, I feel like I’m suddenly on the wrong side of all the bloke-whinges-about-girlfriend cartoons/sketches/blogposts and I’m not used to it. I’m not sure I even like being on the other side of the frustration.
Ok, so frustration is frustrating on both sides.. I’m just usually defensively frustrated, at the people trying to hurry me for example, but I could never really see where they were coming from. I used to get upset at people who weren’t understanding or able to listen or were obviously disinterested by what I was saying, people who wouldn’t cooperate with me and/or my way of working, people who were more concerned about reaching a destination than enjoying the journey..
I am slowly starting to understand some of the people who complained about me, as well as some of the actions of the people I complained about… and that’s worrying!
I’m not a particularly good hetero girlfriend, but it seems I would be an incredibly awful lesbian… 😉
NB: Against the impression I’m probably giving, I do like this lady 🙂 I’ve just previously only seen her in smaller doses (like for an afternoon) and never had her to stay..
4 thoughts on “On being an awful partner”
Sharing your own space is fraught with “i wish you wouldn’t…..) Compromise is hard when you’ve just learned that you CAN have your own space. 🙂 Wishing you the best for the rest of her visit.
Thank you! The rest was unproblematic 🙂
I’ve always preferred living on my own, when possible. If there’s a mess around the house, at least I know it’s my mess.
Exactly! And no-one complains! (Or if they do you can show them how to leave…) 🙂
Welcome to my world 🙂 (don’t mind the mess – it doesn’t bite, but please don’t tread on it)