On not exactly shopping

I went away for the weekend with a couple of friends. On the way to the beach we stopped at a supermarket. Friend 1 immediately disappeared, presumeably to search for essentials. Friend 2 peers at the trolley, looks at me: ‘So what else do we need?’ Me: ‘no idea, I’m just pushing the trolley..’ 🤷‍♀️ […]

On putting out other peoples’ fires

I saw this as I was walking to the supermarket: So I went to investigate. As you do. I like fire, generally, if it’s contained and/or supervised. I don’t much appreciate fires living by themselves in my town. I stomped out the flames but didn’t have any way to do anything with the embers. So… […]

On tears and tablets

I need to go shopping. The tears fall heavily, the breaths juddering and irregular, my thoughts spiralling and my face getting steadily more puffy. The tears have nothing to do with my need to go shopping. They’re just there. And their presence is a hindrance. I want go back to bed. To hide. To cry […]

On rowing at midnight

I have a rowing machine. I bought it on a whim when I bought my aquarium. Not necessarily an obvious connection but they were both second hand and being sold by the same family. And I’d already borrowed the van. It’s not especially good quality. It’s not, according to my brother who actually rows, a […]

On chainging my plans

Here we go again. Jesska makes a plan and life makes it impossible to see it through. *** At the end of August I bought new fish. They were quite expensive as cheap fish go (nothing like as expensive as posh koi) and quite a luxury considering that I don’t “need” fish for anything. I […]

On soldering on

Once upon a time, I soldered something together in school. At some point between then and now I made some stained glass windows and some small Tiffany style pieces. That kind of involves soldering, but with a huge soldering iron and a reel of lead/tin you could probably knock someone out with. Since then, my […]

On lacking trust

This morning I bought 10 chocolate catfish. They are small and dark brown and incredibly cute. The saleslady at the fish market said they’d grow to approximately 4-5cm long – perfect for my tank. I had no signal in the salesroom, so I couldn’t check anything online. I bought the fish, based purely on sight […]